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But my bearded dragon Genbu died and I have to rattle on about that because I loved that wee little lizard.
Her sister Seiryuu died in the fall, though I only mentioned that to a few people. (Unfertilized egg became lodged and infected. This is apparently a common problem for old lady lizards.) I took her to a reptile specialist who eventually had to put her down, but being a reptile specialist he and the nurse (who also had many beloved lizard pets) were very understanding about my incessant crying. Some people do weep for lizards.
You know, I dream about my lizards a lot, because they were precious and rad (and occasionally dinosaur-sized in my dreams, YES!) and after Seiryuu died I continued to dream about them as a pair. Then months later I suppose my subconscious finally processed Seiryuu's death because suddenly I was only dreaming about Genbu. I found that pretty upsetting, and the prospect that soon I'll stop dreaming about them altogether equally so.
Genbu went relatively quickly. I came home this afternoon and she was suddenly pale and listless, just like Seiryuu was before she died. But Seiryuu lingered for days before I had her put down. Genbu was dead within a couple of hours, which is a blessing in a way because I could not have afforded to have her put down this time. Of course, now I don't know why she kicked the bucket either.
I'm worried it's because I have not been feeding her as well as I used to since I lost my job. :(
So I turned off her basking lamp for the last time tonight and tomorrow I'm going to go out to the desert and put her under the same bush I put her sister under.
But my bearded dragon Genbu died and I have to rattle on about that because I loved that wee little lizard.
Her sister Seiryuu died in the fall, though I only mentioned that to a few people. (Unfertilized egg became lodged and infected. This is apparently a common problem for old lady lizards.) I took her to a reptile specialist who eventually had to put her down, but being a reptile specialist he and the nurse (who also had many beloved lizard pets) were very understanding about my incessant crying. Some people do weep for lizards.
You know, I dream about my lizards a lot, because they were precious and rad (and occasionally dinosaur-sized in my dreams, YES!) and after Seiryuu died I continued to dream about them as a pair. Then months later I suppose my subconscious finally processed Seiryuu's death because suddenly I was only dreaming about Genbu. I found that pretty upsetting, and the prospect that soon I'll stop dreaming about them altogether equally so.
Genbu went relatively quickly. I came home this afternoon and she was suddenly pale and listless, just like Seiryuu was before she died. But Seiryuu lingered for days before I had her put down. Genbu was dead within a couple of hours, which is a blessing in a way because I could not have afforded to have her put down this time. Of course, now I don't know why she kicked the bucket either.
I'm worried it's because I have not been feeding her as well as I used to since I lost my job. :(
So I turned off her basking lamp for the last time tonight and tomorrow I'm going to go out to the desert and put her under the same bush I put her sister under.