You know what, I'm just gonna change the name of this journal

[thez]

to "Z's Bad News Beacon" because that's all I ever seem to post anymore.

But my bearded dragon Genbu died and I have to rattle on about that because I loved that wee little lizard.

Her sister Seiryuu died in the fall, though I only mentioned that to a few people. (Unfertilized egg became lodged and infected. This is apparently a common problem for old lady lizards.) I took her to a reptile specialist who eventually had to put her down, but being a reptile specialist he and the nurse (who also had many beloved lizard pets) were very understanding about my incessant crying. Some people do weep for lizards.

You know, I dream about my lizards a lot, because they were precious and rad (and occasionally dinosaur-sized in my dreams, YES!) and after Seiryuu died I continued to dream about them as a pair. Then months later I suppose my subconscious finally processed Seiryuu's death because suddenly I was only dreaming about Genbu. I found that pretty upsetting, and the prospect that soon I'll stop dreaming about them altogether equally so.

Genbu went relatively quickly. I came home this afternoon and she was suddenly pale and listless, just like Seiryuu was before she died. But Seiryuu lingered for days before I had her put down. Genbu was dead within a couple of hours, which is a blessing in a way because I could not have afforded to have her put down this time. Of course, now I don't know why she kicked the bucket either.

I'm worried it's because I have not been feeding her as well as I used to since I lost my job. :(

So I turned off her basking lamp for the last time tonight and tomorrow I'm going to go out to the desert and put her under the same bush I put her sister under.

Comments

[pixle]

;___; I wish I could give you massive hugs. That sucks so much :(

[nanners]

D: D: D: D: GENBU NOOOO ;_; ;__________;

There's nothing wrong with crying over the death of a pet. Lizard, mouse, dog, snake, whatever... it's something you get closed to and it's sad when it dies. I'm so sorry you lost your lizards. They were so rad.

I hope you're doing okay. :< I miss you, cupcake. ;_;

[tatterpixie]

Oh sweetie. *hugs* I'm so sorry. It's never easy losing a pet.

[liich.livejournal.com]

oh, Z. i don't know how long those little guys live, but i think you've had them as long as i've known you and that's been at least 10 years. O_o
though i never had a lizard, i still know how hard it is to lose one of your little family members.
my condolances.
i hope you keep dreaming about the pair of them forever...especially dinosaur sized! that's just awesome!!

[thez.livejournal.com]

IN MY DREAMS I RODE ATOP THEM AND WAS MASTER OF ALL I SURVEYED.

♥

[metonymy.livejournal.com]

Oh, Z. I am so sorry. <3333

[lysianna.livejournal.com]

Z. Hugs. I'm so sorry.

[shinikius.livejournal.com]

I don't think any fault lies within you. I think Genbu might have just decided it was time to go. Its a good thing she didn't suffer though - that's a positive. But I know the feeling of losing pets because they are a part of the family despite what some might say. Its hard especially when its so sudden, I can sympathize. I've been there and its not a good place to be. But eventually it'll get better especially knowing that she didn't suffer.

I hope everything starts to look up for you soon.

[erstwhiletexan.livejournal.com]

*hugs* <3 :(

[travellyr.livejournal.com]

Oh honey, I'm so sorry.

It took me years to stop dreaming about my dog, and every once in a blue moon I still do... the massive share of the airtime for her and for the rats is daydreaming. My wish for you is that your subconscious decides to be the bigger man here and you have both lizards back in your dreams again. Your daydreams too, if you do that.

[lordlazarus.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry. Even though they terrified me, that is very sad.

[thez.livejournal.com]

AHAHAHAHAH. Thank you for making me think of a Good Lizard Memory (the memory of them freaking you the fuck out :D).